Haiz. Dun have energy in the mornings anymore. There are a few reasons. All of which I will not disclose. I dun wanna tell the others this coz I scared I'm bothering them. But this is the first time I have ever needed them so much. I need them to make me laugh and smile. I hope I will never be desperate enough to really go and ask them. Now is quite close le haiz.
After assembly went to the hall to hear about some new systems to the school. Quite boring. Mostly coz I dun like changes. Too bad it's a part of me, my character. But I think the main reason I couldn't take the talk was because I wanted to practise for tomorrow. It will be a real fluke if we can pull off a great performance. After recess go back hall again for some play. Boring man. I thought the school so budget. Why not just cancel all this stuff lolx. After school took the stuff to upper sec hall to practise. Not very good. Just add a bit more only. Haha nervousness was beginning to set in. Actually what I really, really extremely wanted to do was to go do the project. So after we kept the stuff I went to look for Remington. He said next Monday. I of course readily agreed, and rejoiced. And I rejoiced even more when he said I passed and could go sec 4. Finally the sun is rising and the light is triumphing over the darkness! But... the news I felt was too good to be true. I saw Aloy they all playing cards there and unable to contain my happiness I told them. But in the back of my mind I said what if in some way it wasn't true? The happier I am now the more harsh the disappointment if I didn't when I got back the results.
Band. I am so unprepared for everything. I think I dun deserve to me the leader of this section. But too bad since Hew Yenn got so much stuff to do.Haha dun know whether they are genuinely happy for me. I did badly in the sectionals. Actually I think I will continue to do badly in everything unless I finish what I want to do. The project. I haven't told anyone about it. So then later found out that band is on monday. Another dark cloud on my almost sunny day. How in the world am I supposed to do the project? It was on my mind hampering me for the rest of the practice. After band found out that we gonna wear the uniforms for Talentime. Yes! Cool! Great! Megacool! Haha! Jiefang they all went to eat. I spent the walk from school to Bedok begging them to let me off for a while on Monday. Can't. Hit two dead ends. I went home with a heavy heart. Added to the worry of whether I did pass or not.
Went home ate and went out. The ITE guys were at CC playing. The sergeant was there. I dun really like talking to him. Why, you go find out yourself. But there is no doubt he is a great player. Then my turn to play. Haha quite fun. My deck weakness is flying. Now really fed up must get gale force and naturalize, oxidise. Went guitar. Sadly next week is my last lesson. Quite looking forward to tomorrow for I think 2 reasons. While waiting for my burger, I called Jiefang to beg her again. I feel bad doing it. She will surely give in because I am her friend. I feel like I am taking advantage. But this is so very extremely important to me.I would do most anything to be able to do it. So then went home, slack a bit, read, then sleep. An end to another day with the clouds gathering again.