Hi! Played soccer in bball court today. My favourite place to play! And yeah I would have been like having a great day if not for the star wars thing. Hew yenn called to say there was a sort of star wars quiz and if you get it right you get a poster AND a lightsaber!!! Which would be pretty cool except yeah I was playing the game and the thought of like reaching there in 5 minutes was mentally and physically draining. So yeah I forgo it. I kept on thinking what if... Haiya anyway it's past. Not sure whether I wanna be shown on kids central or not too. Quite paiseh leh, all wet with perspiration. But aiyo if a small girl can win it so can I right? Somemore they like want to give the stuff away lor. Lightsaber leh! So many! Hahaha oops I know what you're thinking. Star wars crazy right? Well it's only for this period coz the new movie is coming out. But still... Haha must stop thinking about it. Had a pretty good morning too. Decided I like mondays coz so qing song then can end so early too. Kk gtg watch the 5.15 Star Wars CLone Wars Volume 2 le. Ciao...

Yoyo. Had napfa test this week on tuesday. Gonna take the sit and reach again on this tuesday just to get 3cm more. If because of this 3 cm dun get gold arh... haha it will be a waste lor. Had english oral too on monday. It didn't go well. Like complete blank got no idea how to continue. Wednesday got chinese oral. Need less to say it was even worse. Hopefully can get a just pass. Went to band on wed and thurs. Feels different to not rush and feel busy. So much freedom just walk and talk whenever I want haha. No responsibilities!!! Then got this new guy. Kaoz his head I think got some invisible holes. No matter how many times tell him he still cannot. Or he will do it, then next moment forget. But his clar the sound very good. Maybe coz rc, but on friday it suddenly sucks leh. Nvm just give abit of time sure can one!
Oh yeah I translated the tong hua. It sounds pretty good but ppl always comment on the "bluff people" and "blue sky empty". Had the profiling results too. Haha I think it's pretty dumb. I had a lucky break. After arriving with 15 mins left for the ss test on friday, and handing in a mostly empty paper, I got to take the test home to complete it. But actually now that I think about it I'm not very sure whether or not it's a good thing.. Learnt a new pattern! Eui-am or something. Quite easy for the beginning. Feel scared leh he said this one of the easiest patterns. Good news! I can feel my drive and enthusiasm for tkd coming back! None too soon.
Ytd was the dumbest day of the week. Spent so much time on nothing at all! Met with Qz then went to school. Kao the door locked leh. Lucky I remembered the stick and got the racket out. I think Mr Chua purposely walk that way to see us lor. Coz in like no time he suddenly behind us again. Yeah so we went to tm and couldn't find the shop then go cs. Dun have so he said go pasir ris. Dun have! Finally borrowed a phone book and did what I should have done long ago. But couldn't find any number and coz that stupid guy was so stupid I didn't feel like asking for another book. Wanted to ram the book in his face as it was already. So in the end we went back to bedok, the starting point, and just bought a new one. Travelled all the way for nothing!!! Such a waste of time! But we did see Huang Biren and some other guy.
I was an hour late for band. Dun know what kept me going coz I only had one papparoti today. I really wanted to eat the canteen food but well too bad. Went home, bathe, eat abit maggi, watch he-man, then slept all the way to 3 on sunday, with occasional breaks in the morning. Eat then dun know what to do. No mood to study too. Haiz ytd really a waste of my time. If I wasn't so lazy I would have called ahead. Dun know why I didn't as it was what I normally would do. Oh well what's meant to be will be. Now hoping hard that I will pass every subject. Haiz. Good luck everyone! Study hard! 25 more days to Star Wars!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi. Ran 2.4 yesterday. Luckily my dad drove me there. Quite happy with the result ba. Wah Hew yenn very pro leh. I think my good time this year is because of her. Run with her then got more motivation hehe. Anyway when I reach there I didn't realize the sec 3 haven't finish running. The sec 4 also only Shan joo. But as usual in Ping Yi style everyone arrived right on the dot hehe. After some briefing we ran. While I was running the same thought kept with me. But I think that's what kept me going. I jogged the whole way. Last time got stop for long periods and walk. Wait abit then my dad drove me home. Then we went out eat, then I went home. Alone at last. Watched the normal cartoons, then wanted to study, but then... dropped into a coma. I remember a few hours later my dad asking me wanna go blade or not. Then another few hours just suddenly woke up then sleep again. Finally woke up at 4am and heard the tv. I dun know how but when I heard a few words I immediately knew it was spiderman. I dragged myself out of bed to watch dun know why. To reply all my messages too I guess. Wah Farhana like star wars too I think. Said she found the whole comic and most of the message in capital letters lolx. Went back to sleep at 4.30 plus coz I scared tml sleep whole day again.
Wanted to wake up at 6 to eat and jog but in the end almost 9. Went to jalan paras there eat. The laksa quite good. I hope I can make this routine for every sunday and if can saturday as well. Went home, tidied up and study maths. Ok so enough bout this 2 days. Here's friday, a.k.a. speech day, and graduation...
Friday Day Zero
Didn't bother to bring anything to school today. Haha luckily I was right. The whole morning Remington just got some from different countries to talk about themselves then we went off at 10. He made Fung yi Siling and me stay back. Talked to them about the teacher thing but dun know why made me stay also leh. Only thing is he just say I failed the folio and I improved alot. And he wasn't even really talking to me. But he said lots of stuff like he neglected his family, fail to give enough attention to the youngest. When she wanna read book to him he fall asleep. Felt like crying but then dun wanna start otherwise cannot stop how?
Decided to skip the chinese thing and went to my sis house take the camera. The battery no power so I decided go 7-11 buy first. And yeah I really regretted it. Coz I saw the star wars comic!!!!!!!!!!! So cool!!!!!!! I forgot all about the comic. No money so only buy one and the princess stickers. Haiz after all these years I am still a total sucker for this kind of thing. Went home, bathe then go bubble tea shop eat coz Gus wanna play magic. Went 7-11 buy the second comic and went to school. Wah haha it was pleasantly busy with all the recording of the clarinets. Everyone helped! Hehe and finally got it done. Then fall in, then sectional music. But for me... I got my hair tied! Argh wanted to scream and struggle but decided instead to be a good girl. Felt stupid but yeah just left it on.Spent my last time conducting, tuning and such. Then we went in and had our free time. Read my comic with Dom. Wah so cool eh!!! First time I felt so absorbed into something. Spent the rest of the time talking and playing and laughing. At the back of my mind I knew that my time was getting nearer. All too soon we went to line up. And then the waiting began...
It must have been what, 15, 20 minutes we stood there, sedia holding our instruments? But it was great coz this feeling was familiar. Finally play finish then went back to the room. This time there was definitely the feeling of time slipping away. Ate a meager meal of nasi lemak. Made merry and all, took lots of pics and laughed and had a great time. Then suddenly it was the time for our last performance. It was fantastic! Everyone's emotions took a hand and contributed to the music we were playing. Yes music! Not noise! I wanted to cry but I held on. Just abit longer. Sec 4s got a song request so we play singapore rhapsody. It went unexpectedly well. I didn't expect to play into the storm but it was not bad. Really cool. And then... time to pack up. At least on the last day I keep the drum set. Me and Dom. Then I saw the girls start crying so start lor. There was so much emotion in the air. The atmosphere was so heavy with emotion you could almost touch it. Jiefang told me something I had totally failed to realise and found hard to believe. Haiz.
We went to fall in, gave the baton. Then Kaiqian and Norman gave us our gifts. The slipping time was so apparent. Crying in front of the whole band. Then finally it was time to go. Gave my parting words to the clarinetists but voice failed me in the end. Choked with emotion. Continued after half a minute. Took final pics which upon zooming the tears could be seen on the sec 4s. A group of 18 went to 85 to eat. At least it was a pretty happy time and we had to play the stupid numbers game again. This time can cheat coz just throw the food on the floor.
I will forever remember this day. The wild rush and mix of feelings. I hope everyone will treasure what they have. This loss is incredible. In time I will learn to cope. Thus ends another chapter of my life...

Wow. Thursday is the longest day of the week. 15 mins after lessons got poa. Then d&t. Today tried abit of the central lathe. It's really a pretty good machine. Good news! I aced 2 of the 3 tests! The other test did quite well too. If I can managed to ace the mid-yr, the O level will be chicken feed. Remington's paper is like so totally way way harder. Caught up half way of my physics. Not enough! Must push harder! But it's so difficult. I feel tired and I'm sure I look it. Well what goes around come around. Finished school around 6 plus then went 32 play bball. Quite shiok can destress. Felt my toe throbbing and yeah this time my toe bled. Argh it's so irritating. Walked barefoot to the bus stop hehe.
Wah my appetite not there too. I think the canteen food is terrible. No appetite to eat at home too. So what can I do? Study!!! Haha tml is the speech day. Boring man. And sooooooo sad!!! I will miss them so much!!!! Haiz tml sure cry like dun know what. Hey guys tml see my mood how maybe I'll do the hair thing lolx. Ahhh tonight sure cannot sleep. Ok gtg STUDY. Byeeee! Take care!!!

WOohoo long time didn't update. Feeling more and more down. Had quite a few speech day rehearsals all thankfully without uniform. Generally life is improving. Sort of. Haiyo dun know la. Feel monotonous but something is changing. And yeah stop telling me to cut my hair k lolx. Going to this weekend probably. Haiz everyday is like packed because of this speech day thing. It's so troublesome and unnecessary. All due to bad planning lor. I think at most go 2 or 3 rehearsals should be enough. I think total will be 4 or 5 lor. Irritating leh this school. Want to make the stupid friendship day thing also last minute. Then the idiot class so uncooperative. Feel like alot of load on my mind. And I suddenly can't stand the curry. Actually not surprised. Had a feeling this was coming as I was eating the thing for monday to friday except wednesday for more than 2 months without fail. But today is like cannot bear to take one more bite lor. Now what am I supposed to eat? Haha that's just a minor setback I suppose.
Having 2.4 this sat. Sian man how. I wanna run during pe too but kaoz the sun is just too hot. Today play floorball totally drain me out. Hope get gold this year too then got reward wor. After school wanted sincerely to go to the optional physics remedial but in the end go spf. I dun know what is it with the voting system with Jiefang that group leh. I think their personal system is after the voting result is out, choose the opposite. I decided to go buy my stuff and return my book first. Went to spf! They were taking their pic and I helped a little lolx. Did I feel shocked? Surprise? Not sure. Spf got silver! Congrats! Ok yeah maybe you were aiming for a gold but so what? It's the process right? And what you guys have within the band is something other bands will never have. Haha tried to act crazy to forget but just kept tugging at my subconscious. Even after. Ahh forget it. Spent a very long time time just doing nothing. But well at least got to see something. Wun elaborate here.. *evil chuckle*. Well it finally got to me and I went one side to just surround myself with my thoughts. Sorry didn't know you all were looking for me. FINALLY got to go home. I really regretted coming.
Bathe, eat and study. Watch Charmed too of course. And I got my maths tb back!! Haha no big deal la. Smsed to Samantha for fun. So jealous she can sleep so early. I still gotta slog through. I dun care by hook or by crook I am going to leave the school without any regrets. But is that really going to happen? I will need tons and tons of alot of discipline. Most importantly, I need to clear my mind. Really arrange my thoughts. But that is so difficult. Dun even know how to start. But I know I will find a way. I just hope that when I do, it's not too late.

Being a basketball is a tough life. Everyone just wants to take it and throw it on the floor (bouncing). But it does command a level of authority as well as everyone wants it. Everywhere it goes, people are there to follow. But then, once people do get it, they throw it away (shooting). And it's very dizzy to be thrown here and there (passing). A basketball even has it's own class. High class (more ex and better quality) and low class (cheap rubber).
Ok enough lameness. Feeling quite tired. Today Remington gave us this timetable thing. Which is cool as I've been trying to do it and now better. There are soooo many things I feel like doing. How do I prioritise? I dun think I can discuss this with anyone man. Haha I feel like having a pda. Something better than my stupid phone then can put stupid appointments. Or maybe just an organizer. But a pda would be way cooler and more efficient and also... tons more ex. Weather pretty cool too. Now raining hehe good. Haiz I really hope I can study well. I wanna get the sense of urgency leh but dun have.
I think I have to put aside magic, d&d, and fun outside school. Not until I really get hold of this study thing. A problem is I haven't seen bro for a long time and I haven't given him a present. But I think the most pressing problem is my tkd class. If I dun go for the test by June it's very difficult for me to take anytime else. Taking next year is stupid. But if I do take? Will I fail? Failing is a real big waste of money. Scarely tml I miss lesson also. Tml the sec 3s are coming back!! Haha miss them. And the missing of one of them has made a big difference wor.
Tml hopefully d&t wun be that bad. And the speech day rehearsal wun be any trouble. As to both I say fat hope lolx. Ahhh but I can hope can't I? Good luck to everyone...

Yo.. Wah finding it really tough to study. Like cannot bring myself down to earth to concentrate. And there is so little time left!! Where do I start? How do I start? I dun dare talk to Remington leh. Tml I must show my folio. And I know it's surely not what he wants lor. Dun know. Tml sure die one la. 2 of my teachers are down. Mdm Rubiah and Bibi Jan. Who will be the third? Hopefully no more as it wun help me. Yesterday after school went to the hardware shop with Aloy. Kaoz thought what he talking about it's just a shop selling odds and ends. I thought it's those tools. But I did see some really nice powerpuff girls stickers and yeah I bought them. $1 for 100 was too good to miss. Went back to kfc then saw Jiefang and Maliryn. In the end they also come in and want my stickers. Hmph. I where got selfish? Go buy your own stickers la lolx. Then Hew yenn and Erica joined and then she came hehe. Aiyo... I went home expecting to watch Justice League but then... They made it earlier!! Could be a good thing, enticing me to come home earlier? Hehe.. I wanted to stay home but my dad dun let. Coz I know they sure waste my time lor. In the end they did. At least I got to watch Star Wars with my cousin who was really good company. And I just can't seem to eat my fill.
Today didn't go home early either. Walked with Samantha to mrt then walked back to school. Why I did that I totally do not know. Probably coz she asked me to hehe. Went back and play bb, then go mlc slack. Quite fun leh. Then rain and Hew yenn and I play badminton. Haha it was fun but she wear contacts then cannot le. Wait abit then went interchange. Wah the Cheng Han the tom yam very nice leh. Gonna try. But today already like er 1/4 eaten by me. Haha thanks arh. Went home then saw Joanna sis. Haha dun know when I'm gonna get my books back. Should I ask? Maybe not. Dun wanna seem like I am hurrying her. But then maybe I am in need of them. Luckily today I got to stay home. Partly coz I wanted watch Charmed too hehe. Very nice episode but very poor thing she have to die. Come online and surf the net for last minute ideas on design. Found something interesting but doubt anything will be able to save me. I watched the Star Wars trailer on Sunday and it made me long so much for the show. Found the fantastic four trailer too. Looks cool. July 8. Argh well we have to wait for good things.
Tml got band. And the sec 3s have gone to camp! Heard something abt Kaiqian not going though. Who do I bully then? 403 not gonna be there too. Hopefully band will end early. And yeah still feeling depressed. What am I gonna say? How am I going to get through? Haiz. Well tml will be a day of judgement for many things. Hopefully things will not turn out any worse than it already is. Hey, if it's so bad, it can only get better right? Lots of luck to everyone. Have fun to those going camp!!

Oops long time no update. So here we go...

30 March
Happy birthday Xiuyi!!! Today would havehad 4 free peroid if not for Mr Chua. He came in and give us work to do so Remington know we got free peroid. So of course he took it la. Otherwise we could have gone back an hour earlier. Got band today so got cake too. But I never get to eat leh. No fair. Haha nvm la anyway so small. Got practise abit for sorts day while the new committee was announced. Haha congratulations to all!!! Wah then the Shan joo must cry over everything haha. Kaiqian only what lolx. Went to eat with Hew yenn, JF and Dom then decided to go with them to bk to study. Yes you read/heard right. To study! I actually finished most of my geog and chem there. Cool right? JF is so idiot leh. Make up stupid stuff. Then I went to join my class. Seems they didn't do alot so I didn't miss alot. Went home so late. Had to finish chem if not next day must clean toilet.

31 March
Just your typical thursday. At least home peroid is spent in Pow room. Wah she so cute leh wanna smile dun want smile. After school went to chinese room to do banner. Had to wait until so long until they come back lor. Then had some fun making the hand prints. I mixed the colour with my hand then I realize is a totally different colour. So I made them for Pow and Remington. I got the stick for the banner too and brought them home. Was alone at home coz parents went o funeral. 2 funerals in 2 days leh. Watch alot of tv and feel excited and tired. So sian must wear the band u. Anyway it will look nice la. Slept pretty late.

1 April
April fool! Mr Chua lightened the mood haha so cute. He came in then said "All right what are you waiting for get ready for your test." Coz he say in that normal way so we didn't suspect. Hehe he very cute la. I bought the brani to eat after the lesson coz we got no recess. And I wanted to eat early. Went to the studio during recess to discuss about the stuff. Found out Bhushan is the one who cause us to drop our points. He was late 4 times and cause us 20 points lor. Remington no voice so he just type. Haha he keep on say go to hell lor lolx. The geog lesson was abit irrelevant la. I went home immediately, packed andchanged then went back to school. Have to wait quite awhile until spf came and we could practise. Went through a couple of times then after I thought I had bidded enough time I left for the stadium.
Wah still haven't start yet leh. Everything was quite messy. I got to see the flag thing. Haha 403 flag so small. All the other classes all need 2 ppl so big but theirs just one flag lor lolx. Haiz I ran for the 400m but I think in the end dun run also no diff la. Felt very sick. After awhile went toilet to change and saw my brani in the sink hehe. At the interval did the performance. It went pretty well. Cept the powder got into my nose. Got like 4 free drinks hehe. Spent the rest of the time wkling abou and doing nothing. Quite fun la. After the sports day went to the stand there. I think 403 did a pertty good job leh. Went to play a small bit of soccer to while the time away. Then walk to the kopitiam. Me and Aloy went one side first. I decided to skip tkd. Besides
I dun think going there will do much good cause my legs were tired.
We went to CS Billy Bombers. It was pretty obvious when there is a long disappearance. Anyways the food was fantastic. My high standards were met lolx. Really the food was great. Haha not enough superlatives to describe. After that some ppl cannot finish their food so have to play the numbers game. Arghhhhhhhhhh the horror!! Idiot Aloy so many numbers why must choose that one. Not say is like 3 numbers or what lor. Then is like first round only I dun get to guess. Kaoz. Must eat the Cheryl leftovers lor. *Yuck* Idiot Aloy still trying to tempt me lor. Why acnnot eat Jiefang one? Or others? Haiyo.. Haha anyway the game continued for awhile. Then the cake!!! Wow!! But too much cream. When we left the place I was bloated. Can see the shape of my tummy below my jersey lolx. Then Jiefang teach me how to sing the tong hua. Some of them went home. We wanted to go kbox but then no money then so late le. Went home, parents still not back. Watch finish inspector gadget then go bathe.

2 April
Nothing much. Woke at 2, eat, slept at 3 to 10. Woke up, eat, slept at 12.

3 April
Would have slept until 2 but then my cousin went out so have to buy food for my aunt. Went there watch Charmed. I wanted to go home but my mum ask me stay for awhle. Then she complained of pain in her eye so my parents had to come over after all. Ended up it was nothing. But anyway it was still lucky got ppl with her. Haiz then raining. Feel so uncomfortable. Dun know when can eat and go home.