I just had the most funnest weekend i've had in a long time!!! It was just the thing i needed to get rid of all my recently building up stress and set me on a high before i seal myself up from the world for 2 months. Yes i think Alara will be my comeback.

I came home, and my mum gave me the stuff my sis bought from Japan! She bought me a jacket and deck box how thoughtful. Jacket abit small but not like i can go and change it or what right. I was really touched with the deck box and it helped strengthen my resolve =D I think im gonna leave it on my table unopened as a reminder.

Well this is it then, now or never. If im gonna do something, i will do it to the best of my ability. Should have enough fire in me to project myself all the way through and clear over the finish line. Heat is on. The final sprint.

Omg juz like that the one week hols are over. But it was exceptionally tiring i feel. I think ill be stiff for a week.

Feeling very stressed and worried. More so as each day passes by. Sometimes i feel downright depressed. I don't know what i've done wrong. Sometimes i don't even know why i bother being good or nice or caring. I'm feeling messed up. What's new. My life has always been like this.

I've been checking the website daily. This is the year of change. Great. When i'm gone they decided to have a changeathon. Hmm. I think what i want now is a good healthy boost of pure energy. I'm beat. I'm tired of everything.

Getting more and more tired and stressed up these days. I feel i'm losing myself. And as always, so unfocused. Omg i've already taken so many wrong steps please dun let me make this big mistake. But probably is through adversity that i will shine through. I hope.

I hate stupid ppl. They give lousy service and make me angry. And today on the freaking crowded small bus someone beside me gave up her seat to this fat woman who's not that old. It was my stop and i was like taking my stuff and standing up and she dumb like didn't even know i wanna get down. And take so long to shift her stupid bulk so i can barely squeeze with my 2 bags. I hate this kind of ppl. And i almost miss my stop k coz of the freaking long time she took. And the stupid bus driver also one kind thing i ring the bell for fun nv open door until i ring like 3 times. Lucky got some other idiots wanna board the bus.

Going stadium again with the kids maybe even for 3 straight days. Haha dun know if i can live through it i went home watch tv and kena knockout. I miss Kai lin and i miss Jun Jun.