I woke up quite early at about 8 plus. Strangely instead of feeling drowsy I was energetic. But since it was so early better sleep more while I have the chance. Finally woke up at 10 plus coz I can't sleep le. Ouch my body still aches. Watch tv, and feeling very apprehensive. Haiz my house still not cleared. Then I put it off many times coz of band, and because I was supposed to go out but didn't. The wedding is on the 19, and it's like 2 weeks away. Found out this thursday there will be some sort of matchmaking thing. I dun understand. It's the day I come home from camp. Maybe I will come back on wednesday night. My aunt called to say we were celebrating my cousin's birthday tml. Which was kind of early and sudden. Her bday was supposed to be this friday. All this reminded me of how fast time flies. Every year in december, first lap is my cousin's bday, then is christmas. This year got sister wedding. After that comes school, and my day. Then my sister's birthday, then chinese new year, then my dad's birthday. And lots of other stuff in between. Haha everything is all spaced out through the year. And when each one comes, is like knowing that the time has already past. I dun know whether or not to look forward to my bday or christmas because that means a year has started or ended, and it's a new hurdle. Coz when you're young none of that matters. But starting to feel the maturity of my years. Who knows maybe after my O's I'll start teaching taekwondo. I will go to the advanced classes maybe. But all that brings us to the now. The very real now.
At 2 I ate, then bathed. I waited quite long, and received a huge blow at 4 plus. Argh we were so close this time. I sort of encouraged not to coz it's obvious she was tired la. But I still felt terrible. Dun know how to fit another time into my plans. Maybe I should have hit the floor harder ytd. Didn't even touch my head. Then I wun keep on thinking about it. My parents had already left to give out invitation cards. I finally fell into and uneasy and dreamless sleep which I was thankful for. Woke up at 8 still feeling terrible but not really understanding why. The place was still dark which meant my parents were not back yet. Which I thought was weird coz at most should only take them 2 to 3 hours. Went online for a while then call my parents. Wah they say will take very long still. Can't believe. Dun tell me one house take one hour?? What's so much to talk about lolx. Lucky I didn't go. I will cry man. So I bought food. First time I eat it from downstairs. So watery but ok la. Went online again and my bro, Qz, helped me alot. I read Joanna's blog and realized she apologized. I felt so touched. She had apologised online too. So good right? But I felt guilt too. Not her fault what why must apologise? I encouraged what. Anyway thanks alot. But I'm tired. My patience and mental strength has been worn down very fine. But I think I can do it a couple more times. 2 to be exact lolx.
I better watch out this december. If I'm not careful I will repeat my mistakes. Am I am dangerously close to doing so. Haiz. Good luck everyone...