Hahaha.. Happy Bday Aloy! Almost forgot. Today got chinese test too.Already start of the day see poa is bad luck. It was abit stupid of me also la. My work kena confiscated. Others too. But then they took it back. When we went to physics he chased us to get the stuff back. during physics he showed us all the copied once. He so smart leh haha. Anyway this means that the stupid answer book is wrong. But I'm quite sure I put times not divide. Coz I remember thinking about the question. Then again if I couldn't find the eggs then maybe I remembered wrong. Chinese test so difficult to cheat leh. Sure fail with flying colours la. During recess the stupid teacher ask me where is the work he took. Stupid guy I didn't take leh. Dun know what he trying to do la. I trying to eat leh. Geography now like very dull leh. She like no mood like that. Eh I can't understand it leh. So far all the geog work when got back got the A1 there. But why did I fail the stupid test??? Disappointing leh. I helped to give some stuff to 403. At the same time I handed in the cme hehe. Stupid leh so much new year work. Then now is 12.30 dismiss.
After school go studio dun know for what. I prepare to interview le. I thought why he call all of us there lor. Sianz leh. In the end is just to sabo Aloy. We had fun making him wet. Everyone got wet la. I starting to dislike Rex. Alot. We cleaned the studio leh. Then something stupid happened. Remington say someone broke his fan. And no one own up so cannot go home. I scared it was me. Maybe did it without knowing. But I dun think so coz of the way it's broken and some q asked. In the end we all went together. Then we could cut the cake. The cake looks very nice leh the inside. But then eat like just normal cake. Argh appearances can be deceiving. And so in the end didn't get to interview with Remington. That idiot guy. Went home and didn't even bother to lock up the studio. Didn't even tell us he was going. I went to get the key to lock the stupid room. It would have been a perfect occasion if not for the fact I wanted to see Remington. Argh. Very irritated. Lately have many suppressed feelings about him.
Went for band and they already fall in. Haiz Hew yenn not here. She is like my pillar leh. Low morale today le. But I still felt happier in band. I dun know what's wrong with me leh. I just have a block. I have a block in everything. Great just as I intend to start again I have a block. How dumb can this be. Actually everyday has a chance to be perfect. Is just that one small thing that's the chink in the armour. Idiot. We play some songs for once. I wanna play drumset in big fun in the sun! I was surprised I remember the whole drumset score. I haven't given that song a thought in about, 3 years? But I can't remember the clarinet part at all. Not clearly. After we fall in, then squeeze, I just knew what was going to happen. And just after I thought it he said it. So we weren't going after all. Was I happy or sad? I dun know. Either way I will still do my best what. This year is all so messed up. Well maybe it is a burden off my shoulders. But then must perform for ndp. Think I dun wanna go. Sacrifices not worth it. Moreover this is optional. Anyway I already know one person who will totally disagree and will piss me off everyday. We went home. I felt... jealous when I saw the mace? But then I'm not good enough so there's no need to be so wistful about it. Reminds me of how I have wasted myself away. Needless to say I felt tired when I went home. I rested awhile then left. I dun think my mum even knew I had come home. She was sleeping.
Class was ok. I had more energy than last week of course. Very funny leh I can't understand it. For so many years, always when I do it properly he never see or say anything one leh. Once I start to yawn and suddenly slack and become slower then he will comment leh. Weird. Now always when I slack I prepare for it to be commented upon. I dun feel like teaching. Before I go for class I am already teaching. And my manner in teaching is the same way of how I treat my section. But I try to control it. I think I'm too tired to change that's why. Last time everywhere was a different me. I want to just do workout, Practice all my patterns. I seldom get beyond the first few. But luckily I have a very good teacher. I felt reluctant to spar. That's how I feel nowadays. Die la like that grading how. They all so powerful. I can't afford to fail it. Anyway I was afraid of sparring coz I scared I kena Gus. I dun have my wits about me to spar with someone like him. I'm more of sparring with his ego. Anyway I wished we could practice throwing or the board. I thought he will bring the thick one today. Dun know whether I will ever get to try that one. Or multiple. But at least today I felt the old seriousness come back. The way I felt when I was going for black. Which is I think in Sec 2. I will teach next time. Provided I can split. That's my short term goal. Anyway 3 more months. I missed this one.
Went home in Shiming car then go eat. Saw Zhang Li and family. Bought stuff then went home. I eat some more and felt lazy to bathe. But then have to bathe what. Then gonna watch tv or read or something then go sleep. Exhausted. But more to come the next 2 days. Lots of stuff to do. Please give me the energy. And give to my friends too please.