Haha oh man suddenly feel so sick. Hope i'm not coming down with anything. Probably just lack of sleep haha. So no stamina man me.
Anyways this qualifiers has been a question of much debate for me especially while running through the course of this week. It means alot to me. And yet, even till the absolute last minute i was still asking myself whether it was right to go. Or the other way, whether it's worth missing. Come to think of it now why didn't I ask shan joo? Oh yeah i'm still mad with her.
When i finally 75% made up my mind to go i went to borrow cards. When the next day was the qualifiers haha. And guess what. Just nice Z's cards are in a mess and he can't even find my remand!! It was only then with the absence of remand i realized how important it was to ALL my decks. No coat of arms, fine. I will be weakened but just put in Jitte. No whatever fine just borrow or whatever shit. But there is simply no substitute for remand. None. Can't even change deck coz all my deck all have remand! Haha so i finally realized what an idiot i was for selling away my extra set. Z better buy me a set coz the freaking price rose le. Ahhhh next time just dun sell cards la.
So much trouble for this dumb qualifier. Remand was just one of them. Anyways luckily Terence was able to borrow what i need from David. Even on today the day itself there was a glitch. In the morning i 90% made up my mind le. But i felt obliged coz i went to so much trouble. And guess what. Joesph overslept. Idiot. I didn't wanna ruin everything so i was really calm and everything was ok haha. We didn't reach that late anyways. Enough time for me to do my stuff.
Luckily i planned to go an hour earlier if not whew.
Wah now i got new brother man. Our taste in deck building is the same haha. Luckily i could test out the deck for a few times. I mean c'mon man this was the stupid qualifiers and i haven't even played a single match against a human being with it. I was sooo scared man especially when i saw the other decks around me. And there were rumors that there were many snakes. And you had to win 6 rounds to guarantee a place. And wtf there were 7 rounds of swiss! Means 6 hours of magic man. How to tahan. I sure crack de.
But wow so strange. The weird calm came over me just like in the extended tournament. This is the second time i've felt this way. I actually won the first match against some orzhov control man. Miracle. So i told myself what's 1 against 7. Then i won the 2nd match against a magnivore! It was a damned tough fight. The deciding match i survived 2 or 3 pyroclasms and 2 wildfire. Haha but actually Terence was to be blamed/thanked haha. Blamed as in he cheated. You not supposed to point out during the game unless you're really so sure. He thought he was sure but actually he was wrong. Thanked coz well in the long run it probably won me the game. Lucky never dq.
3rd game against Dickson man my brother. I won and at this point in time i had some hope that perhaps i could make it. After all i had the best results and even won dickson. Whom was more experienced in this kind of deck and definitely played with it longer. Then i lost the next and lost the rest. Fuck it man. I am supposed to win heartbeat. I don't learn from my mistakes do i??!! This one break in concentration caused me everything!!!! I lost that strange calm i felt. I broke the fucking rules when i knew what was coming. Hmph a blue deck tapped out. Rubbish man. Utter nonsense. Last game against solar flare i knew it was over from the start.
How to forgive myself. When this golden chance offered to me and through one lousy mistake, a moment's worth of concentration, a flicker of complacency made me lose. Oh yes you may know your mistakes. But do you really think you wun make them again. Another thing i'm so freaking angry about is that stupid lionel's mirror match. He was f***ing lucky to get his damned jitte out or i would have eaten him alive. I hated the way he talked. I hated everything about him but i wrongly gave him respect. My snakes are tons better than yours i can play without breeding pools too. And worse of all i hate the way people shuffle my deck. Kns u better cut it properly lo. The worse is lionel. How can people shuffle liddat one. Is not call random shuffling is call spooking the deck. So all my lands stick together. I confirm can't draw what i need right.
I didn't realize i had so much anger till now. I have so much more to let out but i shan't bore you guys with too much details. Some other things didn't turn out right as well. But overall i guess i should be happy with my performance. Haha but i still marvel at what a chance it was. Maybe i was too negative. Nvm i will let experience be my teacher. On a happier note chantek or whatever that wretched piece of scum name is called got breaded. And everyone's so happy bout it especially our gang. Not a bad end to the tournament. Cept that i think Joe was a bit upset we couldn't go home together. I understand coz after what he been through, and not knowing even how to go on the long journey home i would be pretty upset too. But my sis fetched me to my auntie house. I didn't know they got new car. Is like so long ago la. Nv show me since father's day leh. I was still looking out for the old one.
Haven't been to my aunt's house in a long time. And we all love the dog haha. I really miss her haha. As always good food is promised at my aunt's. And as usual to go home it's usually bout one hour after u announce it. Finally reached homme and finished the WR, and integration. It was like so easy la haha. I have decided i love maths. Again haha. Ok shall go sleep. Start of a new week tml. And i haven't even started on my gp essay. Ciao.