Ok finally the common test is over. On thurs was supposed to study for the maths paper but i tot i just sleep first. Budden my mum nv wake me up lo slept all the way to 11pm. So bo bian gotta study til bout 4am then went to sleep. And irritating enough the paper wasn't that difficult. Ahhh if only i studied more. The details i dun really know how to do. Well there's always mid yr.
Then went home and it was great coz no one home. After packing my stuff went to jasper house to go do my zen stuff. HEhehe thanks lots. And i was late for soccer. It was not unexpected but still abit shocking to run 2.4. I still having problems with the last 2 rounds. But i'm training to not let my resolve slip anymore. The training was prett good hehe. Reminded me of old times. But just reminded. It was still nothing like the old times sad enough.
Ohyeah so we had to wash up and go for the nancy peters talk thing. It was quite interesting and all. Hope it works out fine. It was quite late when we ended and happened my sis was at amk so fetch me lo. Stopped by home to get some clothes then went to see baby Alysa! Hehe miss her so much haven't seen her enough coz of the stupid common test week. One week never see leh. But so poor thing she still sick. Haiz please get better!!! Was quite tired out coz slept at 4 and when finally reach home just went to sleep straight.
Then today got prerelease. Went to the expo by myself. It was quite pleasant met up with old friends. Like Jerry!!! Realized it's like 1 year half since i saw him lo. So long ago since i played at khatib. Before i made ckt my home. The whole day was quite er fun la but abit boring too? HAhaha. Me and gabriel were tempted all the time to play lolx. But we stopped each other haha. Not worth it leh. Eh i very good k withstand so much temptation. Everywhere i go got ppl ask me why nv play. So i think i should be quite proud of my effort =)
Oh yeah and i sold my shard phoenix. After much consideration. Well what i think is maybe i will only feel it when im much older and dun have it to look back upon. Bought very little cards today. Only got 2 magus of the vineyard but it's enough hehe. Then i was really hungry so left early and me and gabriel went tm to eat. Then i went to buy my Jojo cd but dun have. And sembawang only got what singapore edition dun have the booklet. Lucky they put there lo if not i stupid stupid go buy what cheap stuff.
So made my way to my sis house and ate mac which they ordered for me. Yeah bout 1 hr after my big dinner. But it was still nice the double fof hehe. Watch tv, and it was obvious Alysa wasn't gonna wake up but seeing her was good enough =)=)=) Makes my day you know. Went home and here i am now falling asleep and preparing for tml. Dun really feel like going but gotta meet clement and zach to get my helix back. Hopefully can complete my shopping too. And gotta wait to sunday to get my Jojo cd. Better be good! (I think im gonna buy breeding pool soon before regionals.)

Wow. Ytd was really something. Who would have thought right? I mean the day started out pretty ok. Went to school to meet jasper, then slack around with mima. Then play with my kids when they were released from lessons. I had a good feeling bout the team. Then yeah the usual and boarded the bus go farrer park. The trip there was more quiet than i expected but still good.
We reached there earliest and did our warm up and stuff. The field is so lousy and muddy leh and definitely smaller than normal. So it was quite worrying. Then vj came and our match started. It was drizzling and i took that as a good sign. Means i will be less tired. Which is totally not true. I was doing my job as best as i could but it wasn't enough. I was effectively stopping all the balls with my body and foot. The shots kept richocheting off me and when i turned quickly, expecting another one, it caught me offguard and touched my hand. In the penalty box. And like duh the shot went in we had a j1 keeper. Not to mention all our keepers have a reputation for having no confidence. I was preparing to be subbed out already coz i did real bad and i was tired out already so early. But stubbornly he refused. By half time we were 4 down and i was a wreck. My disappointment in myself coupled with my exhaustion plus other problems made me too tired to even drink and i was on the verge of tears. Yes this was the worst match in my entire life. And still i was in.
The second half wasn't as bad. But my leg finally gave in to the cramp after a clearance. And then yeah the match ended and it was quite devastating you know. I was quite sad too coz i thought i disappointed so many seniors who took time off to come and watch us. And coach too. But i was really angry and disappointed in my teammates as well. Haiz. I missed my 1st kids! And we went to meet one of them hehe. Jolene!! Lolx miss her so much. Seeing her gave me some stress reliever. Haiz well at least my seniors were there and gave me moral support. I miss them alot too!!! Well at least going home was fun. Had the feeling of last year u know. The simple joy. Even though the bus was small, the company was just right hehe. And cara gave me this really cute tortoise! Hehehe hang it on my bag now.
I have almost come to terms with the loss but my guilty conscience is still there. Not to mention the cramp in my leg reminding me of everything. Every step is so painful la. Stupid principal dun let us train see la. Someone else could really have been hurt. Haiz so im stuck now with studying for computing and a cramped leg. Oh yeah but last night, my 2 favourite songs played back to back on the radio! What a coincidence right hehe. So little things make me real happy. Didn't sleep well last night though. In fact for the whole week. Izzit coz im stressed, or tired or what? Just hope that wun disappoint anyone anymore. The enxt 5 matches will be winning all the way!
Oh yeah. And due to some unforeseen circumstances. My name is Eugene Milo Tan. Wish me luck for computing!

Ok feeling more than a little guilty now lolx. Initially intended to spend the whole weekend studying at home. But well things happen you know. My sis bought me a great lunch home. Then awhile later my 2nd sis came and we all went to harvey norman. Ok i dun like shopping but my mum say short while so ok lo.
It was quite boring. Budden after such stressful conditions i bought a zen neeon. Oh yeah and they bought me a watch from thailand too just as i requested. I must say i really really liked it. So the whole day was wasted lo. Hahaha supposed to go my sis house budden dinner like took forever. Called at 6 and only reach at 9 lolx. And my poor baby Alysa was sick. Stupid weather lo.
So yeah spent the rest of the night there looking at baby and was quite tired after the whole day. Give up trying to study le. Shall go sleep now and continue tml. Nite world ;)

Friday the 13th wasn't so bad =) In fact come to think of it it wasn't bad at all haha. Of coz i might think that whenever econs tut is the first lesson of the day will always spoil the rest of day, things start looking up. The day was real laid back which was pretty cool as i was exhausted.
Went to kovan during lunch, just the 4 of us. Hahaha first time this year coz always at this time i got maths remedial and can't go. Today dun have. Hopefully after ct also wun have coz means i passed it :) We laughed like crazy again and it's good mental therapy haha. And it rained and the 2 guys who brought umbrella ask us 2 girls (who did not bring umbrella) wait until rain stop while they go back to sch. Awwww what nice friends right? LOLX. We cabbed back and i think it was so much convenient lo cept the driver abit stupid.
Lotfi went with the guys for the match so we had mr hohoho the stupid old man. He looked quite happy so i got quite pissed. The happier he is the more pissed i am. In fact nowadays i take one look at his face and i just give him some venomous remark and diao him. And today get pw results so i seriously dun want him to be happy. Coz when he's happy, means we're sad.
Actually not that excited until the tension built up in the lt hahaha. Then we went to collect and the stupid old man was slow but guess what. I got a B!!!! Oh man i was sooooooooooo super duper happy! Expected a D lo. I didn't expect to get anything better than a C. And i noticed hohoho wasn't that happy which was good :)
On the way to see my girls saw QZ and Aloy!!!! Hehe they came to see the tp vball match. The guys were damn good lo esp Yang Sheng. Hahaha zai man! Oh yeah then got jersey today!!! Quite nice lo actually the green one. Dilly dally here and there then chiong home to bathe and go meet wee. And good news!!! Jing Wen found her wallet!!! LOLX very happy for her :) So played with wee at jj for some time then went to eat. Had a very satisfying but ex dinner but ok ba hehe. Very long since i was full and satisfied. That's a double bonus. Usually it's one or the other. Then went bk to finish the remainder of our games.
His deck is... Incredible. Incredibly fantastic. Haha i can't wait to see it when it becomes big. So sadly i was having headaches coz too tired and even basic stuff like attack i couldn't do. So went home to sleep. So yeah. A good friday the 13th hehe. Exams and prerelease next week though.

Heheheh overall a pretty good and satisfying day i guess. *smiles*
My dad fetched me to school and everything was great. Played badminton during pe and pe wasn't bad at all today. Then break and jing wen realize she lost her wallet. Poor girl man. Then had a little quarrel in the lt. Jasper fault. So we sort of separated after that me and jasper went to the sac.
It was quite nice coz fifah suddenly came and joined :). Then when met up with noelle at com lab we had a real big laugh and during lunch everything was fine. Ok then had 2 hours of economics by that stupid lam so i just play with my gc abit. I guess the worst part of the day was the stupid char devl or some shit. SO LONG AND BORING!!! FINALLY we could go.
I contemplated going to SCH. Hehe the whole day tension and excitement building up man lolx. But haiz since got common test then nvm ba. Budden... they got a silver!!!!! I heard the phone ring and guess is shan joo lolx. Idiot girl nv go also hehe. I was so nervous i called her sis twice today. But seriously it was really a job well done!!!! I think it has nv been accomplished before lo. Where got band can do this??? Everyone must be so PROUD!!! I certainly am =p. They are all my heroes now =)
Oh yeah the preview card was magus of the vineyard!!! Omg the possibilities!!!! I am so getting as many as i can during the prerelease including foils. and guess what the stupid soccer camp is on week 7. That's like damn far away la. So stupid. HAhahaha so i can be at the prerelease for 2 whole days!!! Next sat man i can't wait. But i think i would prefer it if the camp were on. So yeah really excited about future sight but still deciding if i should keep the box when i receive it.. Oh well this kind of thing leave til when the time comes hehe.
So well that's my day. I am satisfied =)=)=) (aaahhhh)

Man so tired now. Had the match again innova today and it was so... i dun know what to say. I'm not happy at all lots of mixed feelings ba. Today i was quite awake during maths lecture. Until that woman took over i could not take it le lolx. My fav topic normal distribution she take aiyo.
And i think i lost my appetite. These few days i can't eat lo. Is it stress??? I dun know man.
Oh yeah tml is SYF!!!! I hope they get silver man. Pray sosososo hard!
Haiz now just want the common test to come. But i also dun. I wanna play magic. But can't. IS so restrictive and idiotic. It would be fine if i was not like drop dead exhausted. I hope i can survive from next week til the month of may.
Ok anyway im quite pleased with my kids as usual and really proud of them. Well done! But today no kick leh. We shall see their true power in the vj match.. Hehe take care everyone!!!!

Oh the beginning of the week. As expected, it's gonna be a looong week ahead. Common test next week!!! Oh man.
I guess i had a pretty normal day. Dun get me wrong i love normal days. Oh yeah i juz rmbed. The idiot that was supposed to buy my card canceled on me in one of the worse possible ways and i felt like calling him and giving him a piece of my mind which luckily i didn't. Scum like that should just let me kick.
Ah then since monday so got soccer. I studied abit of econs then went off for training. It was... well like last time lo. Juz abit different. i love the company and all. But there was something missing. Actually that's how i feel like these days ya know. There's something missing in my life, something not there. And i really can't think what but it's bugging me the whole time. Oh well. I'm sure time will tell.
Oh yeah so soccer was like that lo blah blah. And i felt a real ache when i saw the formation. I remembered my coach so vividly then and missed him. For lots of reasons. I guess mostly because the spot that he wanted me to play but nv got the chance to really play it out is played by someone else. Anyway there was a bigger agenda at hand, namely getting a gk. That has always been a problem and it's real irritating for many reasons for which none i will discuss here. So training ended real late and i sort of resent that coz i really wanna study for the stupid common test that im sure i'll fail anyway and mr hohoho is gonna be so happy.
I feel like a failure. Doing too much. But it's not even half off what i wanna accomplish. Gotta break away the guilt. Coz i really couldn't help it. The choice is, only one school. Obviously it's sr. Maybe i'll contribute more next year i dun know. But by then i will be focusing on alot of other stuff, especially magic.
Ah!! The other sound calling to me from my heart!!! I have never regretted taking on the game. And i'm sure i never will.
OK FOCUS!!! Gotta make it for next week's common test with decent grades if not i'm really done for. Fat hope anyway. Ok at the very least let my computing get E grade and i will be through the roof =)
Oh yeah and Jojo's 'How to touch a girl' really got me hooked. Go get the song ppl.

Ok i'm finally blogging again. My com's down and using my bro in law extra laptop. Well life has been really really extremely busy. Never imagined it would be this way. But like Daryl said i wouldn't have it any other way lolx.
School, school, and more school. They think we're robots or something. So irritating. Hope it's for the best. Now coupled with training dun have time for anything else. 135 again and i dun even know if it's that productive. Miss you Coach Rosli!!! Tournament just around the corner but i know we'll make it. We always do =). Finals this year!!!
What about magic? The intention was to stop after the grand prix. Which i sort of did after i won 2nd at the junior open i didn't really want to do anything to scar that rank. Budden i realized that stopping is stupid. If not how to relieve stress? Hahahaha answer always here but i ignored lolx. Prerelease coming soon hope my camp doesn't end too late. Hope my box comes soon too.
AAAAAAAA ok so gotta go back to study. Common test next week, match on wed, camp on fri and sat, and prerelease on sat and sun. Excited? Yeah totally and can't wait. Hope everyones doing fine too =p