It's sunday. And what have i done? Nothing. Woke up at noon and ate lunch. Watch csi. Then slack the whole day even had a short nap. I wanna study. But can't start? What is the meaning of that? Remember my conversation with daryl on the way home ytd. How did he motivate himself? He said is coz ppl were saying he can't do it. And i realized that it's the case for most ppl. But i also realized that ppl always tell me i can do it. There is no negtive influence for me. So that should be pretty good if not for the fact that im like the laziest person on the planet. SO that equals to dumb right.
Then i think bout my super smart and super hardworking sisters. Then think about the super lazy me. Like not fair eh. So from now must work hard and like the old ho say give no excuses. I thionk im quite heavy coz im blocking my own way to success. Gotta push myself to one side. Haiz. Depressing.
So yeah like ytd im still struggling with gp homework and im really proud of loong wye. Gotta take a few leaves from his book man. Training tml and my thigh muscles are fine now thankfully. Guess the yoko yoko really help hehe. My best friend for soccer aches. But now the left calf like got problem leh. I think is coz overstrain. Feels like last year one but is always pain, not only when strained. So gotta hope for the best ba. Right now i just want to win our next 2 matches and pray really damn hard we qualify. If not i think i'll just. Be really really really sad.
Ok enough bout being so emo gotta be myself again. I kind of dread school tml though. Nv felt this way before. Ok gotta study. Take care ppl.