Ok i feel pretty emo now. Several reasons. But nowadays is mostly coz i soccer i guess. Oh yeah my boots split le. It's dead now. So suay la it just happened like that. But it was great while it lasted =)) Ye old faithful. Hehe.
And yeah life sucks. Studying for chem spa. almost done quite proud of myself. Budden. Emotions still drag me down. Starting to question myself alot. Starting to be depressed. Why is this so? Well i guess partly due to magic too. And soccer of coz. The dread of leaving. Just like in sec 4. I'm sure i will not shed tears this year. But leaving is not gonna be any easier. I tried. I tried to distant myself from the beginning. But in the end my kids won me over and i got close to them. So it's gonna hurt alot.
But i gotta promise myself. Gotta study hard and make it. So that finally i have achieved something of my own. My life nv had any set backs. It's made me weak. So i guess i gotta find strength on my own. But it's so hard when everywhere i turn im leaving stuff behind and hurt reaches me. Yes i admit im super soft. My hard exterior serves many purposes but mostly it just protects me from feeling all that pain. Haiz. Just gotta focus on getting to the finals. When we do get there, it will subside and it's easier to let go. But even if we dun, i'll just treasure every happy moment =)=)
Magic? Take a back seat awhile please. I made 5 deck lists today. Seemingly alot of potential. But time consuming. Not to mention need very little investment on my part but is still investment. So i wanna stop it. Ytd i researched and found out the first regionals is on 10th of june. Gonna train hard on this AFTER putting my studies as first priority. Just qualify fast and relax, focus on my studies. Ok enough ramblings ba. Right now i just can't wait for Heroes to come out! And yeah dreading the stupid practical assessment tml. Well good luck ppl study hard.