I can't believe it i am so happy! And it was only this morning i was still debating with myself whether to go or not. Well obviously i did and no regrets. I miss playing and laughing with them and their company. I feel proud yet sad. Proud that i'm starting to realize what is sacrifice. But so sad that i abandoned their company. There are feelings and experiences there that can only be felt in that condition so i reveled in it today knowing that it maybe a long while before i can again. And i realized it has been a long while since i smiled when i opened the door to my home ytd being the worst. Maybe coz im really fat and overweight now.
I have chosen. A beginning then.
Food for thought: a question on a worksheet to an 8 yr old in 1986 i think and his answer.
What is your favourite pastime?
Ans: Last year.
Oh and i love kinship! And the stupid red ant bite on my leg is damn super bloody itchifying