HAPPY (BELATED) BIRTHDAY YILIAN!

Sorry this took so long. I know i procrastinated for like 10 days but hey i procrastinated my As for 3 years. Hope you still like the present haha =)



I'm still the same old person waiting for results this fri. Still deciding how to take it. Should i say a "I knew it. Now do what." or how bout a "Man, i should have tried harder." or perhaps even a "I think they made a mistake." Lolx whatever it is i hope no one disowns me.

Spent the past few months after As wasting my time away on magic and other stuff. Looking back the time just flew by. Like where did it all go? It was kind of timeless while it was happening. Time is sneaky. You've been warned.

Went for my weekly soccer. It was not so fun coz gotta pay more. Plus my boot is gone. I kicked the ball and there i saw my toes in my blue socks. My foot came clean out the hole. And i kena hit by the ball on my thigh. Man it hurt quite bad at first. So i took a look after awhile coz usually pain would be gone already. There was the imprint of the ball! You know how when u slap someone hard enough the fingermark is there. Yeah so imagine it's the ball instead of a hand. You can craft out the hexagon from my thigh. I know you guys won't believe this but i had a pedicure and manicure yesterday. And i was right not to paint coz i had to play bare foot as my boot spoil. Which almost resulted in me spraining my toenail.

Then after soccer me, anna, fara and shermaine the short went to mac to eat. Coz mac is the only thing i know how to eat there. They all order something mega or big so i dun wanna be put out so i ordered a mega big mac which is kind of huge. Quite nice eh i think i would enjoy to the max if i got no ulcer. What with eating so much rubbish at work just now i wasn't very hungry anyway but it was good. Then i couldn't believe we spent like 2 hours there laughing our ass off. Seriously i laughed til i got stomach cramp plus headache. At least i learnt something more about indians and tamils. Even about chinese. I know for sure now i dun eat mooncakes or play with lantern during cny.

Feeling so relaxed made me realized how tense i was. First jun jun went australia. Can't see my buddy for like almost a year. Then gabriel go australia. Like during the most important time with like back to back tourney on 3 weekends. Grand prix omg. And now results man i dunnoe if will affect GP Sing. Sian i gotta sell cards i am so broke. So much is gonna happen this march. If i survive unscathed, and filled with happiness, you know that im a living miracle. OH wait, i already am =p

I just had the most funnest weekend i've had in a long time!!! It was just the thing i needed to get rid of all my recently building up stress and set me on a high before i seal myself up from the world for 2 months. Yes i think Alara will be my comeback.

I came home, and my mum gave me the stuff my sis bought from Japan! She bought me a jacket and deck box how thoughtful. Jacket abit small but not like i can go and change it or what right. I was really touched with the deck box and it helped strengthen my resolve =D I think im gonna leave it on my table unopened as a reminder.

Well this is it then, now or never. If im gonna do something, i will do it to the best of my ability. Should have enough fire in me to project myself all the way through and clear over the finish line. Heat is on. The final sprint.

Omg juz like that the one week hols are over. But it was exceptionally tiring i feel. I think ill be stiff for a week.

Feeling very stressed and worried. More so as each day passes by. Sometimes i feel downright depressed. I don't know what i've done wrong. Sometimes i don't even know why i bother being good or nice or caring. I'm feeling messed up. What's new. My life has always been like this.

I've been checking the website daily. This is the year of change. Great. When i'm gone they decided to have a changeathon. Hmm. I think what i want now is a good healthy boost of pure energy. I'm beat. I'm tired of everything.

Getting more and more tired and stressed up these days. I feel i'm losing myself. And as always, so unfocused. Omg i've already taken so many wrong steps please dun let me make this big mistake. But probably is through adversity that i will shine through. I hope.

I hate stupid ppl. They give lousy service and make me angry. And today on the freaking crowded small bus someone beside me gave up her seat to this fat woman who's not that old. It was my stop and i was like taking my stuff and standing up and she dumb like didn't even know i wanna get down. And take so long to shift her stupid bulk so i can barely squeeze with my 2 bags. I hate this kind of ppl. And i almost miss my stop k coz of the freaking long time she took. And the stupid bus driver also one kind thing i ring the bell for fun nv open door until i ring like 3 times. Lucky got some other idiots wanna board the bus.

Going stadium again with the kids maybe even for 3 straight days. Haha dun know if i can live through it i went home watch tv and kena knockout. I miss Kai lin and i miss Jun Jun.

This month of June just flew by so quickly. The days just zipped by so fast that it seemed like only yesterday the holidays started. Where laughter and good cheer was adamant among everyone. Even though every minute was enjoyed to the fullest, it was always with a lurking feeling of dread that threatened to be overwhelming. Kailin left this morning already and soon Junjun will leave this sunday. For 3 years. How long is 3 years? If you were pri 1, most probably u would have forgotten by pri 4, streaming. If you are pri 4, u would be sec 1, a teenager. If you were p6, you would be sec 3, O level next year liao. Alot happens in 3 years where you transit to another level in your life. I can't think for myself what i will be like in 3 years. But omg. It is such a long time. One thing is for sure. You're gone, but never forgotten. I hope the 3 years will just fly by too.

On a brighter note, I have also rediscovered my love for chinese chess, the one thing that makes me chinese lolx. But now my mahjong also not bad ok. It's not that i ever lost it is just there's no one for me to play with. Now got someone as enthusiastic and on par with me so is like wah a blessing. My godson is chinese chess king and carrom queen lolx. Ah kids. They really grow on you. Yeah the holidays were awesome. All good things jammed pack into one month. Now it feels so empty because with its end, takes 4 ppl away from me. Now is time to chiong with them studies. Feeling really guilty about how i have lagged behind. But my A level dream will still come true.

Oh and my little Lyana is so beautiful. I think she's gonna be more pretty than Alysa. But she will look up to her alot. Alysa cries super bad whenever her baby sis cries. Coz she's so sad that her sis is crying. Like why? Is she in pain or something? Haha i guess that's what she is thinking. Now she's just happily walking and stumbling about, randomly going into her sis room and say mei mei. Alysa is seriously busy. You have to watch her during her every waking moment. If not she gonna do something when u least expect it then uh oh. Maybe that's why adults are so tired. Coz they must have used up all their energy in their youth, esp the baby years. Okies going library study then go work. Ciao.

Oh yeah i got a com and like i super have to thank my bro in law man. On the very night he bought it he configure everything then next day afternoon deliver in my house and install everything. Like im so super blessed =)

Anyways same old same old just that it's starting to get to me. The weariness that is. But im so glad it's the holidays! Not for me but for the kids. Coz when holidays come, work is radically different. I get to play my favourite chinese chess, laugh tons more, have a whole load of activities lined up. Seriously i started to feel so much younger and energetic this week.

The good ol' times of '06. It was simply the best. Luckily coach initiated this small gathering for us. Like wow =) We who haven't even touched ball for like 1 or 2 years were just playing so naturally together and having the time of our lives. I think i may have even lost 0.02kg lolx. But im fat and loving it. Coz i can block the goal post haha. I think the one where Mun pinched my cheeks and said i look like a fishball is the ultimate joke haha. Nvm slimming still in progress ok. I missed the endless bantering of jokes and ready supply of laughter. Hahaha well im glad for this i got 2 tuition tml evening hope my brain dun shut down. Cya =p

Haha ok ive been exceptionally unlucky this week. Mainly is my com spoil and 2 days later i spilt water into the laptop and so it also spoil. Now im more bored than ever. But im steadily improving in my studies so i guess is ok. Econs is still sooooooooooo BORING. Relieving stress now at daryl house with clement. But they dun let me play magic! Hmm maybe is a good thing lolx. Ok im hungry cya =)